Prayer
Good day everyone, I really need a prayer, I feel so far from God and it is at a point where I dont even feel like praying anymore
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Why won't God intervene
Hi everyone, My name is Paballo and I'm new to the community. I'm 18yrs old and just doing my 2nd year in college.
I'm not going through a great time at all. I don't even know where to start. Ever since I got here, I've found myself making decisions I'm not proud of AT ALL. I know people say it's a common thing for college beginners or smth of that sort but I just feel so lost.
I was raised in a Christian family, my grandparents are pastors, my father used to be one and well at some point things took a wild turn. Long story short my parents don't believe in God anymore and all this started years back when i was still in high school.
At that time I don't think i felt that change or really understood what was happening,i was young. But then 2024 winter i had a pre-college entrance like programm for about 3months. Sounds like a short time but so much happened to me,about me. It was since then when I'd try to talk to my mom about certain things, about sinning, about doing things I'm not proud of and how fear God's judgment that i realised there really is a big gap in our home. I believe the worst she could do was dismiss me and not say hurtful words about how paranoid i am and stupid to think of such. It was at those moments i realised they didn't just stop going to church,but they have fallen. Today the same woman who used to wake us up every Sunday to go to church, who reminded us to pray everyday, who taught us to run to God about anything nomatter how small, who told me I'll never find the same comfort with him in anyone else.. that woman today now tells me there is no God. I could talk to my grandparents, but sometimes trully there are certain conversations i fear i can't have with them. I've found myself doing so much I'm not proud of, i feel like I'm just watching something drive or lead my life and I can't even say anything about it. I'm more of a spectator of my own life and i have no say in my own life. I will tell myself I'm not doing that, but when that moment comes i suddenly just give in to it and then I'd literally ask myself Paballo what are you doing? But my body mind feels bound to whatever this thing is and I can't break free. I deal with my conscious self then telling me sometimes that I have surrendered to it.
The most painful thing I ask is that even I know I'm losing control over me, and so does God. So why won't he intervene. And I'm not expecting a miraculous energy to just come down to save me but honestly I'm angry and I hate it but I am angry that he's letting me lose it. I know we have to invite God in to our lives, but can he really see I'm not worthy to ask for his invite. So he really won't do anything to atleast help me. I just feel so alone and confused. There is so much i just wish i could talk to someone about. This spiritual war I'm going through, I really am losing it. I just need help
Hi Paballo. I’m really glad you found the courage to share your struggles here. And I want you to know that you don’t have to be ashamed of struggling.
To your question about why God won’t intervene, I don’t know why God sometimes allows us to wrestle with difficult things in our lives. But I do know this: the thought that you are not worthy enough to ask Him for help is not true. Jesus died so that we can come to God freely, even in our worst moments.
I think you need someone with you in this. Some battles become more difficult when nobody knows what we are going through. You mentioned your grandparents, and I think it may be worth speaking to them. Tell them that you are struggling and that you need their help. If you find it difficult to talk to your parents yourself, perhaps your grandparents can also speak to them and help them understand how much all of this is affecting you. You shouldn’t have to carry everything by yourself.
Also, start paying attention to what happens before you give in to temptation. Where are you? Who are you with? What are you feeling in that moment? What usually leads you there? Once you start to notice the pattern, do what you can to avoid those situations. Sometimes asking God for help also means being willing to walk away from the places, people or situations that keep pulling us back.
And please find someone you trust who you can be completely honest with about what you are going through. Someone mature who will listen to you, pray with you and point you in the right direction.
Paballo, struggling is not a reason to give up on God. The fact that you are here asking for help tells me that you haven’t stopped fighting. Even if it feels difficult or pointless in the moment, keep going back to Him.
I would love to pray with you. Father in heaven, I pray You meet Paballo right where they are. Give them strength in moments of weakness and wisdom to recognize the things that keep pulling them back into sin. Give them the courage to ask for help and put the right people around them who will listen, understand and walk with them through this. And when Paballo falls, remind them that they can always come back to You. Please bring peace into their home and help them through everything they are carrying right now. In Jesus’ name, amen.
You’re not alone, Paballo. Things may not make much sense right now, but never forget that God is always with you. ❤
A WORD FOR YOU THIS WEEK
If you are waiting on God for something, don’t mistake His silence for His absence.
Just because you cannot see anything changing doesn’t mean nothing is happening.
Keep praying. Keep trusting.
God has not forgotten you. And He has not forgotten what you are waiting for.
May this week bring you fresh hope, renewed strength, and a reminder that God is still working.
That's why it's necessary that we encourage ourselves also in the Lord.
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